I’ve recently realized that I may be too shy for my own good. I can chatter with the best of them one-on-one, but get me in a group of people and I tend to clam up. This is not because I’m snobby or any of those other words, I just don’t have much to say when surrounded by people I don’t really know. Because of this, I don’t really have a group of friends I can call my own. We don’t get together as a group and play games, or have parties or anything like that. I’ve realized that this may not actually be healthy for me, because I end up spending way too much time by myself. I’ve decided to try to make some new friends, and step out of my comfort zone. Will I be successful? I have no idea. I’m not very good at it, so we will see. I’m not even sure how I will begin my new mission, but at least realizing I want to is a step in the right direction.
So what brought me to this realization? The fact that many of my friends have groups that they get together with every week to hang out, and play games and such, and I realized that I was jealous of this. I realized that my social life revolves around my pool teams, but very few of the people I play with on a regular basis I actually hang out with outside of pool. I need my own group of friends, not someone else’s. When I’m at pool, because everyone else has been friends for a long time, they are actual “friends,” and I feel like the interloper. Maybe I will get past this feeling, maybe not. In the meantime, I will be on a mission to make my own friends, and have my own social life that doesn’t revolve around someone else. This mission is long-term, and possibly difficult, but just like my dating saga, I will be triumphant. Wish me luck!